i dont wanna die
but i don't wanna be alive
each thought seems to be sad
i don't know why i feel so bad
but it comes in waves
every couple days
the urge to just let it out
but i dont wanna let people down
i know how death haunts the living
that when you're gone you can't be forgiven
but oh my god i cant do this anymore
frustrated with now and embarrassed of before
nowhere seems safe
everyone sees it on my face
it was hidden so well
even from myself
now we all see the hurting little girl
and i dont know how to live in that world