It is so weird how the heart and mind have to heal after they’re wounded, just like if you broke a bone. It takes time, sometimes a long time. You might start to hate yourself or take all the blame and feel like it’ll never get better. You have to work every day to get stronger and slowly you become more able to live a normal life. The pain subsides after awhile and sometimes you even forget you were ever hurt. It’s all a scientific process that I’m not smart enough to explain. Just be patient, and brave.