let him say what he says and don't hold onto the belief that he'll follow through.
don't try and change because of want to be's "like someone else" "how I should be" "what they want from me".
let him say what he wants to say because he'll let you stay, without glances. yet it seems there are all of these chances he gives and then rips away.
he wants to play. he wants to hide. he's jade, solid unbreakable. he's bamboo flexible unbreakable.
some day we'll find balance, for now it's a windblown tree dancing with leaves, and he's too busy for me and my blue. distracted from the things he claims he wants to do. writing of nothing that isn't about all. doesn't slow down enough to let himself breathe, yet I touch his arms, his shoulders, his spine. leave him to his own work, and he sends me off to mine. I guess the distress is something only I inflict, if it's me who accepts his lack of interest to communicate.