When did it change?
When did the bond between us become different?

It became different when the things we used to do shifted into a different relationship with someone else
Not our relationship

Someone else
Who made me feel he was better than me
Better than our relationship
Better with you
Better with our friendship
Someone else
who you  can talk with

And now

The things we did
You do it with someone else
Someone else
That you stayed up with to talk to
Someone else
To watch tv shows with you
Someone else
To do the things we did before
Someone else who is allowed to give you hugs

It’s different now because I feel I’m the second choice now
When things become hard for y’all
That’s when you want to pay attention to us

I want to be done
I want to be done with the feelings of unsureness of us
I don’t want to keep coming to your side at your weakness point because of y’all had a bad time

I can’t keep coming to your side
I can’t keep giving you what he can’t
Because I have given you from the start everything I could offer

And now what am I for you?

01.08.2020