i don't understand why i can't just have friends
yes, i can talk but my insecurities and mind can too
i see things nobody else see, hear things no one ever listens to
it's hard to laugh when you feel like crying
very hard to speak when you don't feel spoken to
all i can do is look and observe at the people i forever wanted to be friends with
instead of pushing myself forward to make a connection
to feel less alone in this world
i'm pulling myself more backwards each second
i'm drowning in my thoughts and doubts