Where we lived for years, I walked home The way we used to walk home, Under the softening cloak of years.
Funny, how memory Is shaped and reshaped By our moods.
Today, I was upbeat. But that is an understatement.
Once more, The images of happier times When we were content... No, changed that to happy, Simply being able to eat At SM's food court Caught me unawares. The laughter. The joy. The delight in simple comforts.
But upbeat turns to downbeat.
Where have they all gone?
Now, i can treat us To the best fine dining restaurant in town. Order the best course it could offer And not mind how our bottom line will be affected. Take us to places undreamed of before Which i know would fill your heart with joy.
There were things i know I caused you pain. Terrible. Insufferable. But we were able to go through that.
If only you had waited, Had not been afraid what might happen Back here in our country, Me being over-aged apparently For any good job to come.
If you have not doubted That the Lord knows best.
Perhaps, Just perhaps, We might still be together Smiling at how things turned out In a way we never thought of. The way things turned out Unexpectedly before That made us marvel At how God works, At how better things Were arranged for us.
At how God answered our prayers So that even those who didn't believe Rejoiced with us. Jokingly said that they Would start praying too.
Perhaps, we would be laughing hard At how sillly we were To ever worry. To ever doubt.
Back here in a place You didn't want to leave before. Back here were painful memories And beautiful remembrances converge.
Back here refers to Cebu in the Philippines where we lived before coming to Florida. I came back here in 2015.