I sit in pain
As my mind starts to collapse
Trembling fingers
On the verge of a relapse
Stuck thinking about my evil past
And so many people
Say there here
But I'm alone
Not physically but mentally
I'm unstable
I'm unable
To wear this smile anymore
I'm wondering the point of change
When my soul and mind stay the same
And to be honest
I'm the one to blame
Because after all it was my actions that made my life go aflame
And as I remember I feel intense shame
But nothing compares to my severe pain
I can feel the throb deep in my brain
The voice screaming saying I'm insane

So I cry and I scream
And I beg and I plead
But my mind
It still bleeds
And my heart
It still needs
And my soul
Fights this disease
But how long am I alone
Do I fight
Or just go
Am I loved
Or despised
Am I a hero
In your eyes
Or a *******
Or a failure
Or a loser
Or a disgrace
This face
This face
Had had to many tears
Over so many years
So I must say
Who will stand by my side today