I started smoking again.
But only after work
In the late evenings
When I want to get out
Of my room.
Am I slipping?
I started drinking too.
But only on the weekends
Late at night into
Early mornings
With friends
When I want to forget
All about everything.
I’m not slipping.
I even started taking pills.
But only ones to help me sleep
On those nights when
I’m so, so tired
And don’t think I can survive
Another restless night.
I don’t want to slip.