When will it happen? What will happen? Will I enforce it, wish for it, expect it?
Will I experience a whitehotfierypain, consume my final moments in a furious anguish, barely able to come up for one last intake of sweet oxygen, a barely audible 'goodbye'?
Will I become so comfortably numb, hear static imagination collide with sudden reality as I slowly glide into my eternal oblivion, all with one slow smile?