I know I don't deserve anything.
Love.
Happiness.
Friends.
Apologies.
Acceptance.
Life.
But most importantly... You.
It's not cause of the things I've done in the past.
No, that's irrelevant.
It's because of who I am.
How I act.
Because knowing this, let's you know what I will do.
You know I can't, scratch that, I won't change.
That's why you're drifting away.
It's why you won't accept my apologies.
It's understandable.
I can't blame you.
Only myself.
I say it over and over again.
Knowing you don't care.
I say I don't care anymore but it's just a lie.
But you deserve better and we both know it.
I lied when I said I don't deserve anything. There's a lot of things I deserve.
Loneliness.
Emptiness.
Misery.
And lastly, life... without you.
Sincerely,
Me.