In my life there existed a relentless feeling of anticipation that was buried behind a mound of lies

All along it was just me wishing that HE would have made an attempt, but instead he cowardly continued to hide.


To hear the first part of my story told by him and see if truth ever lied behind my daddy's eyes.

At least a chance to ask the questions that, for far to long, I have kept locked away deep inside.


  I know that my sharp tongued and quick wit was maternal but I wonder who's smile I wore?

A whole part of me is hidden   and ,without him, the answer to these riddles I shall not find.

  My long slender body and this smooth copper skin he gave to me, only in this I am able to be sure.

  I crave to feel the warmth of his loving embrace but I fear it will fail compared the picture I keep in my mind.

He never gave me a chance to be daddy's girl, a chance to fight  and see just what kind of life a life with us would be

  That chance is gone now, you left this life with no goodbyes, I won't get the chance to look into someone's eyes and finally see me.