Turn the handle
Rudimentary
Still I respond this way

Stutter of water
Fear the sound
I respond this way

Water in drops
Water in streams
All I want to do is scream

Close my eyes
Down my back and up my spine
Fearing the water
Fear in the water

Remembering takes me there
Help me, don’t dare…
Help me, don’t dare…

Remembering this place
Fearing his actions
Cleanliness is violation

Bend the story
Lie to myself
I know the problem
I can’t fix it by myself

Can’t speak…
Brought shame…
Feel pain…
I fear…

Can not touch a man
Can not be near you
Can not open how I feel
Can not un-bottle emotions
Can not let you in
Can not let them know

Memories
Break me down
I’ll build me up

Traumatized
Beat me up
I’ll get stronger
I’ll stitch the wound

Learn to forgive
Make me forget

Look at what you’ve done.