Turn the handle
Rudimentary
Still I respond this way
Stutter of water
Fear the sound
I respond this way
Water in drops
Water in streams
All I want to do is scream
Close my eyes
Down my back and up my spine
Fearing the water
Fear in the water
Remembering takes me there
Help me, don’t dare…
Help me, don’t dare…
Remembering this place
Fearing his actions
Cleanliness is violation
Bend the story
Lie to myself
I know the problem
I can’t fix it by myself
Can’t speak…
Brought shame…
Feel pain…
I fear…
Can not touch a man
Can not be near you
Can not open how I feel
Can not un-bottle emotions
Can not let you in
Can not let them know
Memories
Break me down
I’ll build me up
Traumatized
Beat me up
I’ll get stronger
I’ll stitch the wound
Learn to forgive
Make me forget
Look at what you’ve done.