The burs were hanging in trees Like small suicides, ***** of pathetic waste And I cried because I no longer owned my body There were chains clasped around my ankles And attatched to the seedlings children pluck and blow away
And I cried because I am a ******* hypocrite The way I judge you for obliterating yourself Sacrificing your health to A girl who does not care When here I am kneeled over The toilet Sacrificing my health In order to be skinny
Ribs are cracking under the weight of Piano keys and rich words Gluttonous demons whisper Tales of good fortune In my ears When all I yearned for Was to attend my own funeral All I wanted was to tighten my knee caps Remove the marrow in my bones Rearrange synapses And guts Replace vital organs With sand
I ordered a lobotomy for dinner last night The savory cuts in my cranium Tasted like chocolate And I saw myself lying on The cold slab of metal Like I belonged there my whole entire life
But the worst part is I continue to Believe my worth is dependent on How much of me does not exist
I keep lighting myself on fire and watch as the wax drips down my body settling in a lumpy mound beneath my feat
and
You keep lighting yourself on fire Until you are nothing But charred insides And wasted potential tortured by everything you were too afraid to do
there are bombs fused to each of your legs and all you're waiting for is for me to tell you it's okay for me to dust away the gun powder but that is not my job you are going to need to save yourself