She is gone and I am sad It's bad but I know that she will come once more and with the key I gave her open my front door and step inside again to bust me open wide again. How many times I cried 'No not again' but secretly was glad. It's bad when love hits you in the guts and escape routes that you thought you had shut with a dullish kind of thud. It's bad,it's good and when it's oh so very good I could live forever wrapped within her eyes and whether I can hear the silent sighs and moans I really do not care. She's there I share it all with her. It's bad when I'm glad she's gone and sad that she's not home and she telephones to say 'not coming round today' Okay so life goes on How is that possible when she's gone.? It is. I do survive and when the clock strikes half past five and evening runs in from the day. I want to tell her want to say, 'hurray look at me I can manage easily' I groan alone in ecstasy I want her here alone with me I cannot be me without her.