I know how bad it hurts you
To see me break inside,
But I just can't help myself;
All i want to do is cry.
My life is a big old mess
And I wish you really knew
How hard I've been trying
To match your point of view.
I hate the look on your face
When I tell you I'm cutting again
I hate to see the pain
Etched within days end.
And my heart can't help but break
At the thought of your worry
But I can't see into the future
Because my eyes have gone blurry.
I want to get better
And stop being so sad.
But it seems like that goal is hopeless
And gone completely off track.
You have so much hope in me;
You say you know I'll be okay,
But I'm sorry to tell you
That I've begun to fade away.


a.m.