It's behind my eyes everything I try to hide ,
Keep it all in is what I do ,
Let it consume me ,devour me
The things I go through is what they don't see ,
High up are my walls ,the pain seeps in ,
But that is just the beginning of my Oblivion ,sadness takes over,
It's never my time always on the sidelines,
My existence is like Alzheimer's never in memory,
I send them but they aren't heard,
my happiness has been cut like the wings of a bird ,

They run down my cheeks like a roof that leaks,
I am the outcast what defines me is my past,
Letting them down is what I always do,
Can't think of any reason why it's never my season,
To bloom, grow and show off my beauty,
To make everyone happy is my duty,
It seems that way my happiness is always at bay ,
can't wait to see that day ,
where everything goes my way ,

What hurts me the most is the strong composure I keep ,
Knowing everything is within me so deep ,
I love it the feeling of my chest constricting,
Everything coming down ,
That façade falling to the ground ,
Crying underneath the sheets I make no sound ,
To know it's whom I love that puts me in this position,
Gets me beyond recognition,

I'll never understand what they get from it ,
Hurting, destroying and controlling people,
Not anymore
I've had enough
I'm saying this is the end .