Truth is I love you so much it hurts
I try to tell you but it never works
I keep pausing at the times I could say it
you’re the forbidden fruit I haven’t bit
Tears me apart to know that you’re sad
Talked about him and the life that you had
Promise I could give you better
If only I could send this love letter
I’ve held onto it, read it over a hundred times
I wish I’d tell you instead of hiding it in rhymes
I’m a helpless lover boy I done fell in deep love
Pickin at my heart make sure you wear a glove
I set up thorns all around it unintentionally
I’m sure you’ll break through them eventually
You’ve got the key to my secrets
As of now you know my main weakness
Losing you is what scares me the most
I hope you aren’t a tick using me as a host
I feel so alive when we’re together
Truthfully I want this forever and ever
I’m worried half to death that you’ll just leave
I’ll be in the darkness by myself to grieve
Cussing at the walls and shouting song lyrics
Tempting myself to do things beyond my limits
The other night I tried picturing a life alone
My mind flooded to a place unknown
Darker than pitch black
As I let go of the tears that I had held back
I realized what I was thinking of
Im not scared of love
I’m scared of achieving it
and losing it.