So thats really it then I suppose.

It's so cold.
Its gotten so cold here.
Another year of canceling
Refunding, moving, changing
Valentine's day plans.

Little things make me cry
But then again they always have.

I haven't worn make up all week
Because I'm trying this thing
Where I really just trust myself
And because I know it would periodically
Just get rained on from the somewhat frequent swelling of my eyes
Knowing you are gone.

I wonder if you will come round
If we will talk
Exchange
Logistics
Peace.

I've had to
I've been longing to
I've had to
Be filled up with so much noise
As blood trickles down from the deep v between my thighs
I gave so much of my all
I always give so much of my all.