there is nothing in life left to lose other than the life itself and even as i ponder i think will there be any difference? the world goes on turning and those around me will inevitably move on and it's funny to think how strangers who read the spilling of my heart wouldn't have any idea of the day i perish as there would be nothing more than a trace on the web the inactivity of an already infrequent visitor there is nothing more left to lose