i've got no way out
as i lay here on this bed
this pain will never leave me
like the voices in my head.
he comes again, larger this time
like a wolf at final hunt
i know this will be the end of me
"shut up you ******* ****."
theres nothing i can do
as he pushes into me
he sinks his teeth into my skin
and i count to three.
i could to ten and back again
i hope the voices know
I'm trying so hard to leave
but my body just won't go.
he's given me something
to make me tired and dead
tired enough to ignore
even the voices in my head.
they scream as he comes
YOU HAVE TO ******* FIGHT
I'm trying, i think to them
but its just another night.
i am his now, naked and numb
i feel no fear inside me
only him, and my own blood
and again i count to three.
theres only a couple seconds
apart from his hunger and need
what can i do to stop this?
or am i thinking in greed.
maybe i deserve this
all this fear and disarray
the shaking of my bones
and the sadistic foreplay.
i am numb inside my head
but i feel the most pain I've ever felt
like my skin is on fire
from these cards i've been dealt.
he's here with me now
my coal-black, feathered king
he stares me down with ruthless eyes
you deserve everything.  
he hits me again, ******* my cheek
pay attention *****, you're gonna die tonight
i listen hard, but i can't look into his eyes
only my crowned king, watching me fight.  
he can see my hope, pouring out
my blood and ***** on the sheets
he can see my life, all his own
he can see my pain retreat.
i am light now, a floating soul
above this bed, alone
yet finally free from all this pain
that's buried in my bones.
this will be my secret
only mine to keep
so no one knows the darkness
that nestles in my sleep.