Jan 2020
Upon my sorrows you
came and sat, you stole
my heart and played your
evil games.
You lied straight to my face
with your half baked smile.
You kissed my cheeks
but left me with tears
and burning pain.
You said sorry after
breaking my heart once
again. 1,2,3 and again!
You go at me with your
whip of lies.
After all these years
seems forever, you still
make the same excuses
and never admit to causing
the damages.
All I hear from you
Okay,
ok,
yeah,
you're right,
I know...
Nothing more.
So so.
But never an action do you
stain, after all your fictional
claims of being an honest man
you haven't changed.
Upon my broken heart
your memory is stained,
forever a scare you left
behind your broken shame
for me to bandage up
and try to heal.
Only you can stop this pain,
its a personal journey
of self discovery upon
the road to recovery.
I've set up the paths you need,
I've given you a beacon
a guide to the right decision.
That's all I can do,
my love.
Addiction is never a clean
road, it's full of damaged
lives and suffering.
The road to recovery is full of
scares that are healing, bruised
lives that are dealing.
In the beginning it's rocky
and dangerous, over time
you can learn how to
heal and make a healthier
life decision.
Upon the rays of God
you will find peace of mind
but only if you invite him
in, open your door and windows
to his grace and mercy
allow God to replace the addictions and your bad decisions.
All I desire is for
you to be healthy and
make good decisions.
© 2020 By Amanda Shelton
came and sat, you stole
my heart and played your
evil games.
You lied straight to my face
with your half baked smile.
You kissed my cheeks
but left me with tears
and burning pain.
You said sorry after
breaking my heart once
again. 1,2,3 and again!
You go at me with your
whip of lies.
After all these years
seems forever, you still
make the same excuses
and never admit to causing
the damages.
All I hear from you
Okay,
ok,
yeah,
you're right,
I know...
Nothing more.
So so.
But never an action do you
stain, after all your fictional
claims of being an honest man
you haven't changed.
Upon my broken heart
your memory is stained,
forever a scare you left
behind your broken shame
for me to bandage up
and try to heal.
Only you can stop this pain,
its a personal journey
of self discovery upon
the road to recovery.
I've set up the paths you need,
I've given you a beacon
a guide to the right decision.
That's all I can do,
my love.
Addiction is never a clean
road, it's full of damaged
lives and suffering.
The road to recovery is full of
scares that are healing, bruised
lives that are dealing.
In the beginning it's rocky
and dangerous, over time
you can learn how to
heal and make a healthier
life decision.
Upon the rays of God
you will find peace of mind
but only if you invite him
in, open your door and windows
to his grace and mercy
allow God to replace the addictions and your bad decisions.
All I desire is for
you to be healthy and
make good decisions.
© 2020 By Amanda Shelton
My love is suffering from addictions. I've learned to not trust him. It's sad that anyone would have to say that. Love should be a good experience not an abusive one full of broken promises. I've watched my love abuse himself and accuse me of cheating and other horrible things. I am not a dishonest fool not am I perfect. I am too busy meditating on God and dealing with my health issues. I've given him everything he needs to get help. He has support. I made sure of that from the beginning. I have to let him go. If he loves me then he would love himself too enough to get help and follow the program like everyone does who are in recovery. You can't change them or help them anymore than tell them they need help. It's a personal journey. I have my own life to live. I have to take care of myself and my cat.
(37/F/Bakersfield California)
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