I'm so badly
Trying to figure out how to
Be strong enough
How to be confident enough
How to stomach how to be
Your wonderful dreamy woman.

And I think it might be because
I've spun into circles
Seen all the ways it can go wrong
And I voice my reasons, my darkest thoughts
After waking up feeling so grateful
I know I'm always looking
Hunting
For some reason to let it ache.

I know you have seen the monsoons
The mountains you lost yourself on
I acknowledge in what would be
I'm sure beautifully written
Dialogue, minilogues
How to best relationship
How do we best
Relationship.

You found me when I was thinking
I'd step no where else
For quite some time
Unless it was into the sun
And I'd be there starting again.

I spoke so highly of you last night
When people compliment the way
I seem to be with you
The way we are
I light up inside, all while at the same time
I fear being able to be so happy
I fear being able to truly be safe
I fear what it means to just
Let it be.

I said this morning
I've always known it would take a warrior
To be with little ole mighty me
The woman who is profound and uniquely unique
A woman who has been through so much
She carries it around in the veins of her clothes
I don't want to be that woman anymore
I don't want to carry around my romantic tragedies
As though it has somehow defined who I am.

I just want to laugh
With you in that way I do
When we carry on and on
And your face lights up
Like you can really see me
And it doesn't matter who in this world
We flirt or crush on
Or entertain just for a single moments time
Because its you I choose
And its me you choose.

Venus fly traps and all.