Quiet and tearfully
hidden mental health
loud and cheerfully
numbing myself

I know I'm depressed
I admit
I'm always stressed
when trying to ignore it

Tightening tension
inside the bearer of
that I can't even mention
to the one I think I love

You ask how a panic
attack will come in
and then turn manic
all so scarily sudden

You say I can talk to you
forever at my aid
That this burdening blue
will some day fade

Oh but it lingers
still It billows
when curling my fingers
deep in my pillow

But I won't ever tell
you that when it's late
how my mind will yell
out with hate

I can't trust
anyone kind
can't cause a fuss
must keep this inside

It's not like you can help
me endeavor
the feelings I've felt
since forever