do you ever wish that you could go back in time?
a time before you existed
although, there is no time placement to figure that part out is like trying to figure out a maze
if there was another direction towards my life falling into place, then i wish i would have guessed it.
"but be careful what you wish for"

imagine a sweet innocent girl vibing with her friend
feeling safe on the couch, playing video games
a few drinks, and the whiff of the smoke coming from across the room
strawberry vanilla kush , her fav
crossfaded around a good environment is mind-blowing
but so is a worse one


and you knew it was
you got to know her enough to think that you got so close
enough to touch her skin
to infiltrate her mind like that,
to make the goosebumps rise
but was that ever really you?
or drugs?


in order to convince her any wrongdoing is her fault
for her to awake from a slumber
and wonder how she got in this position
in the middle of the night
and for you to continue as if she orchestrated the event
that she never intended to happen
so I ask
who would hear the screams?

except limitless
only inside her head
and she acted as if nothing had ever happened
scared to come forward
even after years to come
was it ever real or just a nightmare?

so here you are, escaping
without even realizing what's wrong
and asking what's to ignore?
you have no comprehension on studying the mind that went through all of this

to nightmares
and depression
anxiety
reality
self-awareness