I find myself reaching for heights greater than my own
Scaling obstacles, like the decaying crumble of buildings

every inch of me searching for something to hold on to
Some sort of purchase to bring my tumble to an ending

and give me a moment to pick up the pieces

I am Striving

To be the man you once imagined I would
Trying hard to dress the part of your eyes reflection

To improve upon that young girls idea of what it meant to be a man
To stand a little taller in hopes of procuring the stars



I am Striving

To turn back time
To climb on to that roof where whispered words were exchanged from trembling lips while the summer stars hung bright above the trees and
Listen
Listen to the sharp intake of breath as we both suddenly realized how far we’d fallen
Not knowing that we had climbed so high...
Never knowing what it meant to hit the ground


Our impact shook the world

I am Surviving
The earthquake that cracked our foundation

The unmitigated mess I’ve made of our moments
Me left staring at my fragmented reflection, wondering how I got so far off track
 


I am Surviving
One day at a time

One foot above the next

Climbing over shattered summer rooftops
Trying to clear the pieces of the home we built

Searching for where my road begins

Still not knowing what it meant to fall so hard