For once I'm seeing facts, no idealistic thoughts The dreams continue Staying awake is the only way to stay safe I know I want her Need her But I can't show her It's not what she needs So it's not what I want
Risking upsetting her Something I rarely want to do Rarely can do And it tears me apart as I want an unachievable status Happiness with her
But that's a contradiction Her being happy And her being with me They can't happen at the same time And her coming happy comes before me being happy