never tremble at the presence
of darkness in my mind
in retrospect
i look behind
i've seen this movie
maybe a million times
i don't cry or cringe
at the thought of death
because with all due respect
i've been face to face with it
in varied ways
and different lengths

i've faced death through
the face of myself
i still face it a lot
feeling the end
i retain many feels i felt
i've faced death through
family health
through the chacnes
of disaster in my life
a tragedy that would've
killed all my strength

the length of the
fear in my heart
and how that fear left a scar
tore down my guard
the length of that and its meaning
has drawn itself very far
in developing self
and the bond with a woman
i love more than anything else

i've seen this movie
maybe a million times
and i'll see it again
i'll see many ends
through the bends of this tube
this vacuum of the universe
it hurts
hurls you through the most
i've grown calloused to the worst
i've grown calloused to the hurt
for what it's worth
i still reside on this earth