tw: idek this is probably sensitive


CANT I JUST SELF DESTRUCT
JUST FOR ONE ******* NIGHT
JUST.... just one night....

Round up the bottles
Everything I can get
Close the door
Lock the **** thing!

Sit criss-cross on the floor
And just.... just cry and drink...
And drink.... and drink...
And drink.... and cry...
Then cut... and cry... and drink...
Watch the blood... take a sip....
Stand, and the dark room will spin
I’ll ******* laugh
This is where I am
This... this is my desperation
I’ll smile wickedly
As I place all the pills on my tongue
And swallow them with wine
Then eventually
Sleep will come for me
Darkness will surround me
I’ll be safe for a few hours

Then in the morning I’ll wake
Pretend it didn’t happen
Go about my business
Wish I were ******* dead.