Concealed behind walls of white
Hidden from a world of possibility
Trapped within
Looking out at the wonderful world
Filled with color and light
Whilst I remain hidden behind walls
Looking out through windows
At the world I crave to rejoin
Recovering from my falls
Internal and external
In my head, seated under willows
Emotions and events conjoin
Pacing those plain halls
Jotting my thoughts in a journal
Then shredding them to bits
Taking part in wordless skits
Giving those who love me quite a fright

Apologizing for my mistakes
So many retakes
Replaying that day
Over and over
Imprinted in my brain
There it shall stay
A mental takeover
Red stain
On a white cloth
Eaten away by a silent moth

Crying rivers
In the rain
Crashing down around me
Soothing my shivers
Running down the drain
It leaves me be
For a moment
To arise once more
To be my internal torment
My reflection in the window

How could I forget
The thing I most regret
Nightmare made reality
Never a sense of security
Gripping in the dark
Leaving a mark
In my mind
To remind me what I need to find;
Peace of mind
Through the window.

- Jay M
December 17th, 2019