what a waste of my time
wish you weren't in my heart and on my mind
i'm feeling so pathetic
seriously this is just like liking a celebrity
a waste of my emotion
and i won't forget it
i'm feeling like i'm trapped
in my own dungeon
that i call my mind
but i'll say i'm alright
just to try to fool myself
even for tonight
I'm feeling so ******' pathetic
An absolute mess and I won't ever forget it
****, I don't even really know you
And you don't know me
We never speak
But the thought of me maybe one day meeting you keeps me company
Though.. in reality
I know it's a waste of my time
Want you out of my head
Out of my head
Out of my thoughts
But so far I'm not really succeeding
No matter how hard I try
You always pop up somewhere
I don't wanna have feelings for you
Anymore
I don't want to have feelings in general
Anymore
Love is exhausting
Falling for someone
It is tiring
I know I can't do much about it
I try to get your attention but honestly
It's becoming not even worth it
The chances of me ever getting to get close is barely positive
But for some ******* reason I keep holding onto the feeling
Holding on to that straw of hope
While I'm sinking in an ocean
And I'm struggling to get back up
I don't know how to swim, and no one can save me
Well isn't this just my luck?
I feel so ******* pathetic
A sad excuse for a human
Wish you weren't on my mind, in my heart
And the thought of you makes me fall apart
Basically like liking a celebrity
Absolutely no point in hoping
But this straw of hope is stopping me
So I dream that one day
Maybe I'll at least be your friend
Maybe I'll at least let go
So I can survive as long as I can