I’m known to be outgoing To be the bubbly one To be the first one to initiate Well I’m tired of it Tired of feeling like I need to continue Being all those things Truth is I just want to do the opposite I want to be silent I want to be the not-so outgoing person I want to be the not-so bubbly person I want to hesitate and wait and see If the other is willing to initiate But I notice that when I try to do this Others become uncomfortable In my silence In my unresponsiveness Yet I relish in it I no longer want to feel as though I need to work for others To want to be with me To want to get to know me I just want to learn to be the listener Not the speaker For once I just want to learn to be the observer Not the one too busy entertaining To observe I just want to try to be the invisible silhouette For once Not only the spotlighted show Who is pitied by me Dying for anyone to pay attention