Alone for the holidays, nothing or no one to enjoy these days. Feeling shackled to the cage...I keep hope inside even though emptiness and long  ways. To get to a brighter future - I hold back the fear of mortality. Somethings wrong when you are spinning your wheels and have wonder of why one must spend his hours in uncertainty.
I need a more easier path for my talents to see my gift to the world light those like me. Feeling drown in silence, tearful in the loss of family , and the need to have a freer way to build strong vibrance.
If those who cared could understand this soul and it’s hunger to escape outside minimum means - I feel the insanity creep in. Swiftly.
I force my darkness back by igniting the last of my fuel.
This “doggy in his kennel” will bust out and succeed at what his will longs for - teams, kindred souls, and a lady to be my energetic lightening.
Flashes marking in light
The success I hunger for
During a long and pain filled night.