I lay here with these familiar walls and their familiar trinkets. Thoughts spinning uncontrollably.  Time goes on as I feel frozen in place with this everlasting ache.  Footsteps echo passed as they go on with normalcy.  They long for me to follow but distance grows. Something within me changing, It ripples cracks through the very person I was. This life is no more. I yearn to fill the void please I need to feel something, anything will you be that for me even if it’s temporary. I need the high. I need the adrenaline.