i get excited to talk to you
when i don't i feel blue

i feel giddy and happy
which is super sappy

i'm learning to love on a whim
but i've learned that love is him

leaving is a fear i carry
it's also a fear i hope to bury

lovers learn to love
the heavens watch from above

i need to say goodbye
to the river of tears that i cry

nighttime is terrifying
the demons are out and crying
*
if happy is you
then i want to have happiness too

pain is only relative
to the joy we get in this life we live

hazel eyes
in which my heart lies

my worthless name
is a badge of shame
**
pack up the van
and pop a xan