I hate food!
Noodles,
Fruits,
Vegetables,
Sweets,
Chips,
Meats,
I hate it all!
I don't want to eat any of it!
I don't want to chew it!
I don't want to swallow it!
I DON'T WANT IT!
I don't like the way I look and I swear on everything I'll change that!
If I have to starve, awesome I'll do that!
If I have to make myself *****, I'll do it!
If I have to work out until I've passed out, I will!
I don't want to gain any more weight!
I'm tired of being fat!
I'm tired of not looking cute in anything I wear!
I'm tired of crying myself to sleep because I feel so bad after eating!
AND I'M SO TIRED OF PEOPLE STARING AT ME!
I GET IT!
I'M FAT!
Stop reminding me!
I hate me more than you ever could, so just stop!
Doctors told me that I was too fat to have a problem with food!
DOCTORS!
Why God, did you have to make me this way?
I'm not pretty!
People cringe when they see me!
I can't even eat in front of my best friends anymore without my eyes tearing up!
WHY!
I want to love myself, but I can't!
I can't because I'm too fat!
I want to be pretty
Like all these other girls I see!
I want to be able to share clothes with my friends
Instead of turning bright red when they offer to trade, but remember my size!
I want to be cold
Instead of being so fat that I'm always hot!
I want to be able to eat without judgment
Instead of eating a piece of my birthday cake and staring around the room just knowing someone is watching me!
I will do anything at this point to not gain weight!
NO ONE KNOWS WHAT GOES THROUGH MY HEAD!
NO ONE KNOWS WHAT I HEAR ALL DAY LONG!
NO ONE KNOWS!