It is chilly
My insides need some nourishment
Shoulda left my apartment
30 minutes ago
I get caught up writing
Instead.

I'll go soon
Go about this day
We all hibernating lately
And I think back on
The pain of last winter
Purple lips
Dark hair
Holding holographic pieces over my eye
It was so much work
I worked so hard.

I work hard this winter too
But its not for someone
Its for me
It feels like a new layer
And with that new layer
I'll be better suited
For the right now.

I am definitely drained
But not in a negative way
My days are just filled up with
People talking, listening, more talking
I feel sometimes like I'm supposed to just
Shut the **** up
Give less of a **** about myself
Like that would make the people I work with
More comfortable
Like when I'm too confident and into myself
Its a barrier, a danger
It makes them feel badly about themselves.

Can't help but clock the folx
That don't act supportive
In the way I wish they would
And theres much that I want
But I let it go
I'm practicing letting it go
And not letting anything or anyone control me
But me.

Its time to go get started on this day now
With maturity
With trust
With ease
With power
With love.