schedule conflicts
and distance
indeed you are far far away
even though the world moves on
i won't let that change
the fact that i care
know that i'm there
as soon as you call
and if i'm not
know it's not your fault
because even when i'm busy
thoughts of you are with me
because i love and miss you dearly
so listen closely
i need you to hear me
i know the days are hard
and the nights get dark
but your thoughts are even darker
and sometimes people make it worse
and them trying to help makes it harder
because you question every decision
those tears start to blur your vision
you hate yourself for not being perfect
you feel like you cant fix anything
you tell yourself you're worthless
and when they try to say
otherwise it doesnt penetrate
you still feel shattered
if they bring it up again
you say it doesn't matter
but i want you to know
in case it doesn't show
IT ACTUALLY MATTERS TO ME
i love you and if i didn't have you
you don't know how lost i would be
a world without your smile
wouldn't be worthwhile
i swear it from the depths of my soul
but i understand how
disappointment can take its toll
i'm sorry that i've haven't been around
and that those other people let you down
you deserve so much more
i should've done something earlier
or said this before
i'm not telling you to be okay
i can't tell you to ignore the way
your heart feels and just move on
**** anyone who tells you to ignore your feelings
they are so so wrong
we all doubt ourselves at times
it's normal, it's growth, it's alright
don't feel embarrassed for being yourself
even if it is you
comparing you to everyone else
but i will tell you
that i hate to
see you treat yourself so bad
you are so ******* amazing
i hope you know that
it hurts me to see you cry
it kills me to watch you recite
those ugly words into a mirror
when i see you post those things
i wish i could pull you near
and tell you all these things
i forget to say but always think
so here it is all laid out
you will heal and you are loved
it's okay to slow down
don't be so hard
on your poor heart
you matter and you are allowed
to feel sad
it's normal to feel doubt
and just in case you forget it again
i am your friend
you can always hunt me down
i know it gets busy
but i'm always around
and i'm rooting for you
i know you can do
those things you think you can't
just know that i trust and believe in you
and i will always try to understand
so when the chasm deepens
and your fears creep in
remember the words above
when the world gets to be too much
know that you are loved