I find myself trying to hide way too often. . .
Tonight I was hanging out with my favorite kid on the planet.
I have to be a role model for her. . .
Always!
It's really difficult!
Especially on a night like tonight.
I am really struggling to eat properly and feel a certain way when I'm eating, but tonight was especially hard.
I ate my food fast so I couldn't think about how it made me feel in that moment.
I was on the verge of crying. . .
I had to hold it in with all my strength to make sure she didn't see me cry over food.
I don't want her to be afraid of food.
I want her to love her body and to not have someone hurt her.
I want to love my body
I want to stop thinking about food constantly

I hate food