Sometimes she hides in the carefully constructed sentences and perfectly manicured nails. Sometimes she comes right out rugged, fuller figure from all the eat 'til you get a food coma moments that keep happening "this is the last time" too often.

She has read the books and watched the documentaries and knows what to do but there is this weight on her shoulders that just won't budge no matter how many days she sleeps in, I mean taking time to recharge is productive too..right? So... no sunshine. Darkness and her bed her most trusted, most consistent, most enabling "friends".

"I should get out more."

"I should see people more."

"I should..."

People:

"You have gained so much weight! Oh hi!"

YOU SEE MY DILEMMA?