I am taken aback by your mind.
Stricken by your soul.
Only to have your body soothe me.
The grasp of your hands on my hips
Your lips caressing mine
As your tongue finds its way to hold my moans back.
You stroke me as if I'm yours
So I close my eyes & fall into a world where I believe it's true
And for a while I'm in ecstasy
Making love with you endlessly.
Scared that when it's over you'll forget about me.
& hey, what's up? to the girls blowing up your phone.
So I stay in your bed
Trying to comfort myself.
Wrapping myself in a false reality
Living in a dream where I thought love existed.
To realize when I wake up
Last night was a mistake.
Along with the previous night
& the night before that.
There was no love
Not even the slightest feeling of a crush
Yet your affection when your ******* me
Caresses the affection I want to feel,
Not from you
But any who will.
Your mind was not a matter
Until I learned your thoughts
Saw the depths
To find your flaw
The biggest of them all.
You have no respect for ladies & you call yourself a gentleman.
Even then, I look past it.
As if there's the tiniest hint you have any for me.
Still, you want me to chase you
And honestly I need to replace you.
You're no good for thee.
And yet, I still look beyond it
Thinking your soul & mine were meant to be
That they've been searching for each other for an eternity
Madly in love in another lifetime.
Yet,
I am going to remain quiet, silent, hushed.
Figuring out in my head that it's time that I began to realign the distance between us
Making it grow *farther & farther & farther & farther
Until the idea of you doesn't creep into my thoughts,
keep me up at nights,
wishing, hoping for no apparent reason that you're thinking about ******* me
**Because then at least I know I'll hear from you.