Now there is the sweet smell of love and the warmth of our home. Now there is you and me and him. You guys. My loves. However, long ago, in another lifetime, in my youth. In the city. Long, long way down the road. Years ago now I met her. Older than me, a few years. Friend of a friend's cousin. Tall, lean, smarter than me. I was hurt on the day she brought me into her room. It was noisome with the smell of *** and I was just old enough to recognize the odor. I remember now the strange sinking tug in my stomach. This is what it feels like to have your opinion of someone change drastically. Visceral. My head was still filled with puritanical Catholic nonsense. Dogmatic ******* held with firm resolve. I limped into that room broken and left much the same, except everything about me was different. Years and traveled roads later I found myself changed by another room. Another girl. Another stop along a road that would eventually lead me home. We are roadmaps for each other. Geography. Charting routes over troubled seas and loyal earth. Finding ourselves along the way and again when we arrive. Once, years ago, I misjudged a girl because I was unfinished and young and her experience scared me. I was cleaner, less road dust. I wish I could tell her I was sorry, but honestly she may not even know. May not even care. I was wrong but I was still many miles from home. Many miles from you. Geographically speaking.