no one reaches out
my line stays dry
i don't reach out either
because i've already tried
nothing comes of it
it all ends as fast it starts
i'm tired of people trying to change me
i'm tired of nursing a broken heart

so i don't reach out
and neither do they
empty inboxes
haunt me all day
the messages that come
are desperate or bored
i'm dying for interaction
but i know better than before

the one time i replied
he tried to use me
to try and manipulate me
is the best way to lose me
so i ghosted him
and left him on read
turned off my phone
and went to bed

I NEED CONVERSATION AND STIMULATION
I NEED MORE THAN DESPERATION
MY DREAMS ARE BEYOND X RATED
I'M MORE FUN WHEN I'M THINKING
GIVE ME WORDS WORTH READING
SAY SOMETHING WITH ACTUAL MEANING

i sift through the gibberish
in search of food for thought
i am not here to make you feel better
nor to get you off

i just wish someone would hear me
my throat is raw from screaming
WHY DO I FEEL SO ALONE
why is happiness so fleeting

but all they want
is for me to fill a role
either to take my virtue
or save my soul

why
why
why
why
why

i just want to talk to someone
and tell the truth for once