i have blood on my hands in more ways than one but when you cup each of my palms in turn and place in them the instruments that you use to keep death at bay i am grateful to be holding your blood in my hands as your husband steadies you against the clanging of the train, the second strip thirsting after your lifeblood as parched earth after rain and for blood money returning a number as though the streams coursing through your veins were reducible to so many pieces of silver.