And just like that
I'm alone again
The truth is so bitter
Beating against my face
The wings of a battered dove
Singing for escape
They say that I am not worthy
That I put all my faith
In one face

And even as I spoke
I felt my defeat
Seeping into me
Through the cracks
I swore I sealed up
Last year when
I passed this
Same problem
For the hundredth time

And now as I sit
Plagued by chills
The spiders that skitter
Up and down my spine
Reaping lumps
In my flesh
I feel nothing
But the same thing
I've been pretending
For so many years