i remember.
you may not
think i do,
but how could
i forget
someone so
cold
and
heartless?

i remember
how i thought
i loved you,
how i thought
the only way
i could survive
is if you were
by my side.

i remember
when you were
my one and only,
my world --
or at least,
thought
you were.

i remember
our first kiss,
and how
incredibly
awkward
it really was;
i remember
how your lips
tasted like
sour apple,
and how you
asked -- yes,
asked --
if you could
kiss me
again.

i remember
craving your
touch,
even when
your hands
were stiff
and your heart
was frozen solid,
and your
eyes were
nothing but
glass marbles.

i remember
the day you
hurt me,
when "my world"
was gone,
when
you left.

i remember
asking for
a reason,
a simple reason,
and you told
me that
i was never
important
to you;
with a voice
as cold
and bitter
as your own,
you told me
you never
loved me.

i remember
thinking
that you
were right;
thinking
that i was
a joke,
of complete
unimportance.

i remember
not coming
to school the
next day.

i remember
how many
tissue boxes
i went through,
trying to soak
up the many
puddles of tears
that you
created,
tears i wanted
to drown myself
in.

i remember
it all.
i remember
how much
you hurt me.

so don't expect
me to walk by
you and wilst
you away with
my mind
or the flick
of my finger.

because,
while i might
forgive,

i'll

never

ever

forget.


a.m.