I wait stupidly like an anxious child. For nothing. I wait as usual For a person Who deliberatly Keeps me at a distance Who only looks For what I haven't done Who scolds instead of loves I wait For nothing but a punishment Ive allowed To sprawl over me And slobber themselves on my pain I wait for one who doesn't Love me or care to love me How insane To wish I had something more To stupidly believe I even deserve Such graces. I'll mever be Nothing more then the worthless unit I am right now. I'm a monster, Meant only for use My while life Has perpetuated this to me And every person I've ever connected to Has only taken from my soul Only leaving pain Its always the same.