If you expected so much from me, then why give up on me?
I thought I worked hard enough
But I guess it is never
You're always asking for more
I don't know if I can keep up
And it's like I'm chasing the dust of the wind, left behind
It just feels so hard
Disappointment fits me so well
Don't you see?
All I leave is shame
That trail I seek was never laid out
I'm chasing a dream that crying out
What I can barely hear
What am I here for?
Is there really a life out there for me?
Am I living or just surviving?
I failed you I know, it's all I know to do
Couldn't be the best not even second
Sometimes I aim for your disapproval, sometimes I stop trying
Letting go is so easy, pulling back is so hard
I'm a rubber band that ripped
A bad case of sores
Soft thorns trap my soul
Stuck and hopeless
I remain
as
I
am