not because I learned from them. I’m still just as confused as I ever was. I loved them because they were so much fun. Some of the biggest thrills in my life, the moments I felt
truly alive is when I was doing something utterly wrong, something totally disgraceful, and where I shouldn’t have gone. But even though I got hurt, and so did many others I couldn’t say
for one moment that I wasn’t truly in my element, that I didn’t experience passion through the fire, that I didn’t feel the ecstasy through each cut and bleed and ***** deed that had me
spinning as a top on the edge of the table ready to fall off at the next turn. Not knowing where I was going but having a ******* fantastic ride going there with my eyes closed and my hair whipping
in the wind, feeling immortal and being young again, that kind of young when you think you’re invincible. You can escape it all, like a James Bond movie. I was the leading lady, certifiably crazy!