I hate myself so much.

I see the fat that coats my bones.
An immovable sludge.

I see the stares the beautiful girls get from everyone.
I see people look at my body with pity.

I hate myself so much.

I see the cellulite bulge through my clothes.
My insecurity makes me want to cry at the gym.

I hate myself so much.

I am strong.
I am fast.
I am me.

But there is nothing I hate more than me.